My life has gone to shit.

Whatever.

School sucks.

Missing deadlines suck.

Missing the deadline because you completely forgot about the assignment until the day it was due sucks even harder.

Not being organized sucks.

Not getting a job sucks.

Not having a phone sucks.

Being tired sucks.

Being lazy sucks more.

Having NO money sucks.

No friends sucks.

Wasting thousands and a year of my life, takes the cake.

Listening to: Curse of the Currents by Said the Whale

Fact of the day: I spoke too soon; I suck.

A simple "Hi I'm still alive" would have done.

But no. No answer, no nothing. I'm not even worth that much. Its great to know what we had was all we had. Not even a decent friendship? Thanks pal.

Listening to: Daisy by Brand New

Fact of the day: Unimpressed.

Flossing just feels right.

Reading week was pretty good. Although unproductive, I had a good time. I spent the majority of it in Milton. Drinking coffees and eating sushi. I would have liked to see a few more people, however, funds and rides prove problematic.

A very good thing: I had an interview for a full time summer job that went quite well.

A very bad thing: I was informed my marks did not get through to George Brown so I am now scrambling to pick up my transcript and deliver it BY tomorrow.

A very good thing: My father is going to pick them up and express post them.

A very bad thing: If I get this job, I start at 5:00AM every day... Not too stoked, but stoked enough to have a job; and a decent one at that (I hope).

Now that I am back at school, I've tackled one midterm and I have an essay due Thursday. I plan on working pretty productively tomorrow; however, my plans usually never follow as planned.

But right now, Melody and I have got a date with some snow angels.

Listening to: Night Majestic by Au Revoir Simone

Fact of the day: Music can be accredited for many of my good moods; and so starts the listening track.

Oh sleep, how you've been neglected.

And so starts my week of hell.

Fat of the day: I better get in.

Neurotic.

I just fell asleep on my floor, under my bed [there is a 2 and a half foot gap underneath my bed].

Why?

Because my bed was filled of the things I planned to put away in their right places. Instead, I ended up in the wrong place.

I need to get a good start on all these books I haven't even opened. Reading week needs to be put to good use, although I don't really see that happening.

These are My 'empties'.

Also, this is where I wish I was:

I am still sick. :(

Fact of the day: I am unorganized.

This is the farthest thing from a party in my mouth.

The cafe was having some sort of special buffet today so I decided to try the tofu stir-fry. Worst idea ever. The sauce they put on it is burning up my mouth. I cannot taste anything but fire. This is an unfortunate situation not only because it looked so delicious and my taste buds were unpleasantly surprised, but because this was my first 'meal' of the day and I wanted it to be wonderful; it was not.

Fact of the day: I wish you still made an effort to talk to me.

Picking apples for kings and queens of things I have never seen.

That apple you're eating there, someone picked it for you. When is the last time you said thank you?

Fact of the day: I'm broke for real.

In a world of pain wishing I was worlds away...

So I came home yesterday for the night because I have an appointment early this morning. Picked up The Boyfriend so we could hang and sh’y’t. Finally was just about to get to sleep (because I have a weird thing with falling asleep, it takes me literally hours) when all of a sudden my body decides to hate me once more this week.
I wake up, literally rolling in pain, while trying not to disturb le garcon; sit staring at a wall and holding the right side of my face for over half an hour before deciding “hey Jen, why not try some pain relief?”.
What a fantastic idea, why didn’t I think of this sooner? Idiot.
On my way downstairs there is a snag in my magical plan. I made it out the door but then yawned / hiccupped. My ear did not like the way the rest of my body was treating it, so it decided to take revenge on the nerves in and around my jaw / ear.
I finally made it downstairs, in more pain than ever now. Forgot what I was doing and decided to walk really fast around the kitchen to try to take my mind off the pain. I suddenly realized the advil sitting on the counter that I’d gotten out for the boy earlier and thanked goodness that there was some left. I took two with some OJ and began the wait. Standing on a vent in the kitchen (because my house is super cold all the time) I finally started to try and focus on feeling better, when I broke the vent. Taking into consideration how much pain I was in and couldn’t really fathom what I’d just done, I began to cry. I hardly ever cry, and this was a big deal. Once again, holding the right side of my face, trying to massage it, I walked around the kitchen, crying uncontrollably.
I turned on the computer to look up my symptoms but I was in too much agony to focus on the screen. Yet again… led to holding my face walking around the kitchen, trying to be as quiet as possible, sobbing to myself.
Right about now, as I am typing this, the advil is starting to kick into high gear and I have come to the conclusion that sleeping next to a window whilst trying to get rid of a cold, make for painful situations such as this which lead to an enormous sinus infection.
Yay life.

Overall fact: I didn’t cry because of the pain, I cried because I’d broken something and couldn’t fix it; I've also run out of Advil.

Face of the day: Sometimes my posts run a little long but lets face it, if you're creeping, you've got the time.

How'd I end up on the ground?

I just woke up from the most random dream. Let me further explain if I can remember:

I went to England to visit a castle with my family; at first. When we arrived, we were not allowed inside so we walked the grounds. The garden was unkempt but only the roped off places. The grass we were allowed to walk on was neatly cut and watered, however the roped off places' grass extended far beyond the tip of my head, so there was really nothing to look at. As we kept walking we came to a barn-ish looking thing and went inside. My sister had some sort of bulldog on a leash, and inside the barn there were a bunch of cows all huddled into a small pen. Then all of a sudden there was one cow who was loose and kept staring at the dog. The cow turned into a small grotesque angry looking pig then began to bolt toward the dog. We ran to the nearest door, which eventually led into the castle, but inside turned into a regular looking sort of house (no one's house I've ever seen though). We were all standing in the kitchen looking for something to eat when we found frozen burgers and pizza in the freezer. We threw them in the oven and proceeded to wait for them. When they were done, I went into the oven to get them out, and when I did my family went away and my friends replaced them. Thinking this was nothing unusual, because... I mean... We were in an English castle's kitchen making frozen pizza... I began to munch out on the pizza. After I was finished I returned to a room that looked much like my dorm and awaited a call. When I received a call, it was Bradley calling to tell me he'd be there soon. Melody then came to my room for a while, we went back to the kitchen to find Eva and some people I'd never seen before but she dubbed her friends. Eva was also awaiting a phone call from some boy who would not pick up his phone. Then I wondered where Bradley was, as it apparently had been a few hours and was now Exactly 11:14pm. I tried to call him back but he did not have a cell phone so I accidentally called a different friend. When I suddenly realized I was calling the wrong boy I hung up and began to sit and wait for his call. Suddenly the phone rang, but it was some girl's voice. She called me Eva, so naturally I said "Nope, its Jen." She then wanted to hang up but I told her to hang on and rushed to give the phone to Eva. They chatted for a few minutes when Eva then demanded to talk to the boy she was waiting for. We then all went for a walk outside, along a mote that surrounded the castle, and then got into a canoe.

Then I woke up.

What I've taken from this:

- I would someday like to go back to England and visit my family + castles

- Never make kids stay off the grass, or else it just goes to waste

- Catherine, don't take your dog to a barn

- Cows need to stop being mass produced, so much that they need to be held up in abandoned castle's barns

- I need to make pizza again

- Bradley needs his phone back

- Eva shouldn't give out my number

- Canoeing is a great time waster

Fact of the day: Every day I'm alive is the best day of my life

Dilemma on the ground.

I really hope you do not hate me. I hope you think the way I do.

I do not dislike you at all, in fact I think quite highly of everyone; and you’re no different.

I had nothing to do with your previous encounters. I will not dislike you because of someone else’s views. I am my own person and you are yours. I make my own decisions, not based on other’s opinions. Please do the same for me.

Fact of the day: I miss the way healthy feels.

You aint no goddamn son of a bitch, You’re just more unlikable than you used to be.

I have a test to study for tomorrow and I have not yet started. I do not know what I'm to study, as my teacher knows too much information but does not know how to teach. Therefore I am unsure as to what he wants us to know exactly. I guess I'll just research philosophers and stuff and hope that gets me through. (He also said the text book would not really help) Double-you Tee Eff.

Fact of the day: Grapefruit is a dangerous fruit. :(

Higher People.

Its been one of those days where I have one million and twenty-four things to do, but don't feel like doing any of them. I woke up with a sore throat, hoping it would just go away as it usually does after I first wake up; however, it stuck around all day. When I got back to school I tried to sleep it off; but that resulted in feeling even worse, sleeping through my class, and needing to regain the energy to go grab myself some fluids.

I took some Advil cold and sinus, so far it does not seem to be working. I plan to take some more, as much as I can, until I feel it starting to take the reigns over this cold. Being sick is just a total fucking bummer. Especially when it only really steals away your energy to complete the day's tasks.

Fact of the day: I miss being healthy.

The Dog Days Are Over.

Today it has been one month. That makes me happy.

Fact of the day: I am excited about this.