Paranoid Android

The last week begins:
As of late I’ve become severely stressed about a number of things. However the thing that stresses me out the most is that I never do anything about it. There are things I need to do, things I have to accomplish, and things I would like to say to people before I leave.
I’ve become a nuisance for my parents, a half-assed friend, and an even worse sister. My mind is in several places at once these days that I can’t find it to be in one place when it counts; therefore resulting in failed attempts at anything. There are certain people that mean the world to me who don’t know exactly how much they have been a part of my life over the past few years and that makes me sad.
For about the next year of my life, I will be living on my own, in a single room, no bigger than the size of my smallest bathroom. I don’t make friends easily so I am depending on the overconfidence of others to help me out a little. Am also trying to figure out how to hang on to old friends, or what little of them I have left, while being away from any and all of them. I’ve already lost one for reasons that are unknown to me and we haven’t even left yet.
I don’t usually get this paranoid this easily because of my lack of emotion or knack to disregard almost anything. However it has become apparent that I can no longer just slide by on old habits. The future is coming and I can no longer hold off the fact. I cannot stay here any longer, but I am too afraid to leave.
Please, someone, keep me sane.

Fact of the day: I don’t like being alone, I’ve been there for too long.

Sometimes the things that once used to impress become unimpressive

Over the past little while I have begun to realize what the main goals of most human beings are. They are selfish, self-centered, and oblivious to the world outside of their immediate surroundings; and have no admiration for anyone who disagrees with them on even the smallest scale.
The world is filled with enough anguish of its own without needless name-calling and backstabbing to intensify it. Honestly, what do a few harmful worlds now have to contribute to the world’s gravitational pull?
Next time you feel like taking pleasure in the degrading of someone else’s fashion sense, beliefs, morals, religion, intelligence, financial standings, sexual orientation, friends, family, etc. ask yourself: in 100 years… in even 10 minutes… will this really have made that great of an impact on my life to be equivalent to the time it took out of it?
We all strive to attain the ‘good’ life. We all think we can only achieve this by stepping on people we find to be inferior to us. If we could all learn to praise what others do right instead of belittling them whenever we can, we could all be living a much more satisfying life.


Fact of the day: I didn't want to go through this again.